Life: A Story that is lived by getting more minimal on each page
Do you remember the last time you played house? When was the last time you played tag, the last game of hide-and-seek? I think about this from time to time, and it always me sad to think that we did not play these games knowing that one day that would be the “last.” It happened the same way for all of us; one day our games simply ended up on their own, just like life. After all, we live our lives without knowing which day will be our “last” …
We never know whom we are seeing for the last time or who is seeing us for the last time. I think about this quite often, and perhaps that is why Margit Schreiner’s Book of Disappointments (Buch der Enttäuschungen), which says “we start dying the moment we are born,” left such a profound impact on me.
The book presents a deceased woman’s confrontation with her own life, narrated in her own voice, at times in a painful tone and at times with humor. Beginning in the womb and continuing through her final breath, to the moment her loved ones gather to bid her farewell, what she recounts is more or less the same as what each of us experience.
To give an example, after the age of 40 many of us say things like, “I have narrowed my circle; the fewer people, the greater the happiness,” and take pride in what we believe to be our “conscious” solitude. The character created by Schreiner, who has a background in psychology, realizes at the age of 50 that the people she had invested in and always assumed would be by her side were not nearly as close as she had thought, and she recognizes that her life has shrunk in size and become less crowded. This matter of shrinking is important. In many places, it is emphasized that we leave this life by becoming smaller.
Naturally, with age, life narrows in every sense and forces people to make choices.
The main sentence of the book could be “Everything ends, yet we never truly notice,” or perhaps, “Life is what it is – do not overanalyze it, just live” …